Letters to James – Cracks of Life

Missing you, little one

June 3, 2024June 3, 2024

Today you would be 14 years old, James. Time helps me live, but it does not take away the ache. I wrote two short poems leading up to […]

Letters to James

Letters to James (10): the first events without you

May 14, 2024

October 20, 2010 I love you, James. I miss you so bad it hurts. I want to touch you—hold you up to my face and see you smile […]

Letters to James

Letters to James (9): Doing our best..

May 9, 2024May 9, 2024

September 26, 2010 Sorry it’s been several days, James. As you probably saw, I did something stupid the other night that stemmed from having too much to drink. […]

Letters to James

Letters to James (8): Back to work

May 8, 2024

September 20, 2010 Well buddy, I went back to work today for the first time since I broke my back. The doctor is only letting me do half-days […]

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Letters to James (7)

May 6, 2024

September 17, 2010 It’s 12:18 AM and we have made it through another day without you here. I miss you so much. I am starting to “meet” many […]

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Letters to James (6): Signs from above

May 6, 2024

September 13, 2010 Wow, James! Mommy just had a total meltdown: it started with me trying to unload the dishwasher and your bottles and things were not in […]

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Letters to James (5)

May 6, 2024May 7, 2024

September 11, 2010 James, I miss you so bad it feels like I can’t breathe. I go in your room and cry so hard–smelling the few dirty clothes […]

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Letters to James (4)

April 25, 2024

September 8, 2010 It’s 12:19 AM, buddy-buddy so I made it through the first month “anniversary” of your death. I slept real late–forced myself to eat some left-overs […]